Past & Future Tense

November 25, 2008

Yesterday I drove to collegeville to see a show at a college in the town (go figure). Beyond the fact that I took the turnpike to the show – due to the advice of googlemaps – and later discovered that I could have taken Route 29 and saved 20 mines and a dollar fifty on tolls, the show was pretty good. Mischief Brew played a sorta short set, but I can see why. There was only around 25 people at this show. They sounded pretty tight, except the vocals through the PA were very bassy and so not loud enough. The atmosphere of the show was not as good. Maybe i’m getting to the point where I’m too cynical about stuff these days. but the place reeked of arrogance and immaturity, I’m going to stop going to these kind of shows all together. I don’t care about seeing these kinds of bands if I have to deal with kids who spend hundreds of dollars to look homeless and 20 somethings who still think they have to prove they’re punk rock enough. Its not a big loss to me honestly, I can always go see a Lifetime, Latterman rip off band and feel perfectly at home.

C.P is planning a summer tour with Til August, The 1up Kids and The Speakeasies. 2 weeks going up and down the east coast. Stopping for a bit in maine. Currently the Speakeasies are on track to have a 6 song Demo out before our first show in december. The 1up kids are on hiatus right now because of drummer problems. I plan to keep a diary during the tour and turn it into something.


An Introspective Look

November 15, 2008

Most of my blogs on “Can I Scream?” have been my observations about others.

I’m not doing as well in school as I would like. I feel like I’m not living up to how I should be doing. I know I can do better. and I’ve even begun studying but often times I feel i’ve been beaten before I even start. No matter how hard I study I can never seem to get good grades on AP History. Sigh, and history always came so easily to me! I don’t understand what the matter is, I should be acing these test. Oh well, I’ll give it another go. Maybe the 10th time is the charm?

I feel like I can’t give up, because everything I want is so close, I just have to continue trying because in the end. That’s all I can really do.

I’ve recently started a few projects that I hope will be good outlets for my creativity. I’ve begun playing in bands again. The Speakeasies & The 1UP Kids are their names. I’ve started writing on “Can I Scream” again and I even have plans to start a Zine with some friends from allentown.

I’ve also started keeping a diary of which I keep things that don’t end up here. Things of a more personal nature. I feel that may be healthy as well.


Hope

November 3, 2008

I’ve always found myself jaded and pessimistic, I dont think I’ve ever been this excited before. Just the thought of what the future holds for me leaves me anxious and out of breath. I can only open my eyes and look to better days. The things I care about and the issues that matter to me are now at the forefront of the nightly news. These kinds of things are becoming hard to ignore.

We stand on a bridge about to cross into a time where fear no longer rules. we stand ready to forgive yesterday’s mistakes and fight for today. One can only hope that these dreams and feelings I have can finally manifest themselves into action, like synaptic responsese from your brain to your muscles.

To state the fact: I am scared and it is beautiful. Scare that we may finally win. Scared because i’m not acustomend to not being on the losing end.

But for the first time in a long time I have hope. Hope that things will improve, that this country will be great again. that the land I love is taking a big step towards peace and happiness.